Week 40 update

Miserable week. Had false labor on Tuesday night, some pretty strong contractions that kept me up until 1 in the morning, but then faded away. Poo. Really haven't been feeling well myself, more nausea and I think I threw up into my mouth 3 times last night while sleeping (woke up just in time for each).

Not to mention my anxiety is so high I can barely keep a handle on it.

Cissy took a turn, she's not drinking anything. I tricked her into it last night by mixing in some wet food with the water, but she is miserable and howling up a storm because we have to keep her confined. She peed in front of me 3 times yesterday - even once in the litter box (which is REALLY weird for her as she's shy about that) and it's all blood, it's not even slightly pink anymore. I can tell she's in pain, and I wish I had asked the vet to do more, as he said there was pretty much nothing he could do, it's "probably stress related", which might be true, but locking her up stresses her out more and we can't have her peeing all over the house, and things are only going to get more stressful. So far, the pharamone dispenser doesn't seem to be helping and we've had it for a month. I feel heartbroken that she's so miserable, I want to make it all better, but if it's all because of stress, I'm afraid we might need to find her a new home because the arrival of the baby will probably make everything worse.

I really, really don't want to give her up, and I refuse to bring her to the Humane Society (they euthanize cats who pee outside the box), but I am confident that if she were in a home with no other pets and no children, she would use the box and be perfectly happy/healthy again. Even finding a home that would take a chance on her would be very hard, because I really can't guarantee her use of the litter box (she still uses it to poo, but only occasionally for pee). I get so, so sad just thinking about it, but it might be better for Cissy if I can find someone willing to take her in. She really is a fantastic cat :(

We're going to the vet again today to make a better assessment. I am not leaving there without tests and an answer. I paid $150 on Monday for the vet to give her some random antibiotics and say there was nothing else to do, so if I am going to pay that again, I'm going to get something more out of the deal.

Yeah.. I'm a little stressed right now...