The worst week

It's not been a good few weeks. All the negatives are outweighing the positives at the moment. 

- Harrison and I have been really sick. We both got a cold just before Christmas and when it finally seemed to be going away, we both caught another, worse one. Harrison got mild pneumonia and an ear infection from it and I got a sinus infection and a special inhaler so that I could breathe without dying. I actually slept sitting up for three nights in a row. 

- Not only did I have another rough and nauseous first half of my pregnancy, but it went away to become a nasty cold, for the cold to finally fade into third trimester nausea and horrible, horrible acid reflux. My body just can't win. 

- The stress on my body from the illness and just feeling constantly anxious about everything seems to be causing multiple Braxton hicks a day. I don't remember having so many contractions with Harrison. Maybe it's just that I recognize them better this time around. 

- To top off my crappy days, pepper is still really sick too. She's on a special diet, we're trying a second medication, she's had a full work up that didn't tell us much, and not what's causing her problems. So far, just this morning, she has thrown up 3 times and had diarrhea in 5 different locations. The next step, if this medication doesn't start to work, is an intestinal biopsy. Which is really expensive. And could tell us nothing. Even if the biopsy came back positive, I don't see how it can be treated more than the things she's on and if it's cancer, there's really only one more option. I really don't want her to suffer anymore, but I really don't want to lose her. She is the best cat and like my little furry baby. It's just so hard knowing what to do. 

I know this isn't a fun post, but it's not a fun time. I want to be nesting, getting ready for my new baby, working away at con costumes, and playing with Harrison. But instead I am worrying constantly, cleaning up after my sick cat, always tired from being sick and pregnant, and all too entirely overwhelmed. I am trying so, so hard to stay calm lately. 

I promise a better post maybe this weekend with pictures of Harrison. Hopefully some good things will happen.