Baby Room

I haven't dealt with depression for a very long time. I had it when I was pretty young, but faded when I reached teen age. The anxiety stuck around, but I'm more or less used to that. 

I haven't dealt with depression in a very long time, but I've felt it over the last few days. It's small and I know it'll fade quickly. I didn't know I would be so saddened by giving up my sewing room. It's time for us to prepare the new baby's room and it needs a lot of work. I have relocated to a small corner of the basement. 

I had to give up "my space" and while I know I was lucky to have that for so long, it's more than just the room. Sewing is how I make a living. I've decided to take a hiatus, not taking on any commissions for awhile, but I still plan on sewing for myself and possibly etsy. I will have to be a lot more careful about the things I leave out. No more scissors , pins or projects, I can't just close a door. 

I know it'll pass, I'm really starting to get into nesting. But change is hard. I know someday, when we move to a somewhat larger home that I will also feel this way. I'll be sad and sentimental. It's who I am. 

That sad, I must also put "I was right." Harrison learning the word "No" went from being pretty cute to intolerable very, very quickly. Tha last few days "No, no, no!"

"Ready for lunch, Harrison?"

"No."

"Can you pick a story, Harrison?"

"No"

"Harrison, it's time for a bath!"

"No."

"Let's change your diaper."

"No no no!"

It had devolved into full on tantrums. It's like just learning how to say the word has given him a new sense of defiance. So many meltdowns. Time outs. And he was grounded from any Halloween candy yesterday. Hopefully, this newfound defiance will grow boring he'll go back to normal. Or he's hit terrible twos a little early. He is currently sitting in his crib saying "No." 

But he did try to use the toilet the other day. He didn't actually go, but he asked to use it and I figured "sure!" It was cute, and I think I'm going to get him a little potty so he can get used to the idea. We don't have any plans to potty train soon, but if Harrison wants to, we might give it a shot. 

Here's some pictures from our awesome Halloween! 

Pumpkin painting, the parade, Zoo Boo, Moms Club party, and taking Harrison Trick or Treating for the first time. It was a great year for my favorite holiday! 

Now it's Christmastime according to retail. 

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Also, I'm apparently 20 weeks today! Halfway there!! Two days until we find out boy or girl! Any guesses?